While his family searched for him in vain, he traveled across the United States, living off his wits and the charity of people he met along the way. He immediately set out on a meandering adventure, a vagabond odyssey, as if he had been living a secret internal life all along, one that suddenly prompted him to throw over the affluent middle-class lifestyle he had conformed with previously to seek a purer place to think and feel in. He anticipated that his parents would want to stop him, so he arranged to have his mail held for at least a month before it was returned to them, thereby giving himself ample time to leave for unknown parts unhindered by parental intervention.Īlthough he had been outwardly obedient and cordial toward his parents, McCandless seemed to have been inexplicably angry with them for a long time. He graduated from Emory University in 1990, lost no time in giving away to charity the sizeable balance in his bank account, and then abruptly abandoned his past life and the personal identity all knew him by to basically disappear from the lives of family and friends. This is no joke, and you do not need to be saved.Into the Wild is the true story of the mysterious life and death of Christopher Johnson McCandless, a talented young man from a good family who inexplicably turned his back on everything he seemed to have going for him. You preferred anything to an anticlimax and you got what you wanted. At first you are consumed with fear, then acceptance. You will now experience death, the final emotional and physical climax. The same isolation that you longed for, that brought you happiness and fragility as well as sadness and danger, is a duality. However, you would be joking if you did not think there was a price to pay for the ultimate. You were right you experienced emotional stratification, the ultimate extremes. You thought you had discovered something new, something that would allow you to experience the ultimate emotions a human body can produce. You have gambled your life and lost, the loneliness you experience is comical, you have ignored human history and tried to embrace the very danger and chaos that modern man sought to escape. The mentality of your new life slowly unravels into a mass of hypocrisy and pointlessness. The moment where defeat is accepted is always difficult, but if defeat means death the pain is unimaginable. In the name of God, please remain to save me (12). In these situations the only fulfillment is death, the only time when the old self is completely gone. We are either satisfied with what we can change, or in a constant state of motion, trying to solve a problem that has no solution. It is impossible to completely change ourselves we will always have the memories, behaviors, and bodies from our previous form. The thoughts and pursuits of modern man are impossible to shake completely. This ideological pursuit, to find a controlled environment where the only variable is oneself, was absurd. You have to spend time thinking about, questioning, and defining your own existence.īut there was a side to him that was a little bit dreamy, a little bit out of touch with reality (81). You cannot redefine yourself if you are hampered by the things that define you. From outside these actions are confusing, pointless. They have rejected life and its rules, instead they seek to find rules instead of make them up, learn instead of teach. They seek solitude, a chance to look within. A man who has given away a small fortune, forsaken a loving family, abandoned his car, watch, and map, and burned the last of his money before traipsing off into the wilderness (71).
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